whoa

I have the strangest feeling this morning..that I should be doing something...it started last night, I got this antsy feeling that I should stop being a slacker and get to work...I do have a bit of stuff to do, a couple of narratives for re-evals I am doing on tuesday, plus finn's exam. I should bang out that exam before I hang out with kevin tonight, yeah that would make me feel better about things. I've just been avoiding it, her exams are actually kind of difficult. bleh. I also have had a renewal in my genuine interest in music...having it as my area in study in undergrad kind of killed any genuine interest in making music just 'for the fun of it'...kevin picked up piano randomly a few years ago, a friend taught him and he just kind of kept at it. Its really nice to know someone who is just doing it for the love of it. It seems like a lot of people I knew in undergrad just did it for the sake of doing it....without the passion. maybe they were as burnt out as I was (being so band-y in high school didn't really help things either..I ate, drank, breathed music...like being in every group I could be in, even show choir, even though I can't dance to save my life..) anyways music as an adult pasttime doesn't seem to be very popular. i mean you can be in a 'rock band' or you can be a professional musician and make money off it, but to just be musical for the sake of it is kind of something that a lot of people don't take advantage of, myself included. I am going to bring my guitar back with me in may, that might help the spark. I dont know if I want my tuba out here, its kind of a betch to move, and where I wont be in school much longer, its hard to say where the wind will blow me after I walk across that stage. woo! I can't count how many times I thought to myself...holy crap I'm not going to make it to graduation, this is too hard...well I think i might just make it. just maybe. anyways I'm happy to have met someone who is so passionate about something i once was, I think its coming back slowly but surely. Oh another thing that I admire..he gets free sabres tickets from his workplace, but doesn't care enough to go. Its so hard to find a guy who doesn't give a crap about sports, especially at a jock school. Anyways, hes my breath of fresh air. nice.