dreams..

I dont know if dreams are a mental detox or what, they are a tad disturbing at times, that is for sure. I dont even want to describe what I dreamt of last night, plus who wants to hear about someone else's dreams. it wasn't disturbing persay, they were just very vivid, and cameos were made of people I would rather not have in my dreams. anyways, it was an interesting night. I was feeling crappy when i went to bed, I'm better now, maybe being sick makes your dreams weird?

hm

making pho tonight, I've been sick and figured that a chickeny spicy soup would be good to clean out the ol' breathing apparatus...it smells delicious, this time I'm using chicken thighs (last time I made it vegetarian..) but I had thighs in the fridge, so decided to go there. it takes like an hour and a half to cook, but that is good considering I'm not hungry yet. I even have bean sprouts and lime juice to go with it, should be delicious! everybody in clinic was in a jovial mood today, it was fun at clinic. I got all my work done waiting for 6 to roll around, I felt very accomplished. ugh emeril is on, he's a d-bag. anyways, just wanted to share my pho adventures, exciting like whoa! Everyboyd I know is getting engaged/married/preggers, its so weird. when did we all grow up?

hmmmmmmmmm

I dont like thinking about graduating...I mean its nice to finally be out of school, but I dont know where to go, what to do...the lady I shadowed over break was nice and all, but she was activator, I dont think I want to be just activator, plus her office staff was weird. hm. I could go back to the bangor area, but there's nothing much up there. Theres no associateships or whatnot in the portland area, so I just dont really know. somewhere between portland and bangor perhaps...bleh I hate thinking about the future. I just want things to never change and for nobody to bother me in my happy little bubble of contentment. bleh. In other news, the woods were fun, kevin got freaked out by nature (ah whats that noise..whats that noise..) and we got visited by a porcupine during the night (we stayed in the lean-to, which is a shelter that is open on one side. we watched the porcupine amble around the campsite, and the guy even put his front paws on the shelter, looking as if he wanted to come in and cuddle. ahh!) anyways it was fun, I'm exhausted though. bleh clinic tomorrow, I hafta go to tonawanda...stupid old peeps. bleh

psyched

I am freekin psyched for this weekend, kevin and I are going backpacking for a few days in allegany state park, on the north country trail! the packs (which i bought off craigslist for a good price) are pretty much packed, I've got enough food for a good few days of wandering around in the woods, we are ready to get out of this town for a few days and immerse ourselves in nature! woo I can't wait, I just hope the trails arent packed full of d-bags. I dont think they will, its hard to find maps of the area, which is annoying to say the least..oh well, it'll be fun I am sure

part 4...

done and over with...there's always that nervous 'did I eff that up?!!' but I think I did okay..I had a good study source (if anybody wants it let me know and i'll send you the link..) which pretty much told me what I had to know. the pep stations were pretty tricky (the ones between seeing patients) I think that was the hardest part. The stations themselves weren't bad at all...I'm just glad its over! phewwwwwwwwww

happiness

I dunno, maybe its just the stress from boards talking...but it seems like I'm not happy lately. The past week has been a real downer. I bet its mostly from all this studying, it seems like contentedness is just out of grasp, and if I do catch ahold of it, it kind of slips through my fingers, or its there and then gone, like an afterthought or a dream you try to remember but just can't

sad

I feel sorry for people who feel the need to talk about everybody else on a constant basis. I mean, how pathetic is it that their life is boring enough that they need to butt in on everybody else's existence to find happiness. Not only that, but they have to talk negatively about everybody to give themselves a little ego boost. The world would be a better place without these hateful attitudes, but what can you do about someone like that? Shake your head and hope they find a new hobby, I guess

hot damn!

I am officially halfway done with my adjustment numbers. fricken yeah! now I just have to pass part 4 this weekend...eek

don't go changing..

I had weird dreams last night, much different then I've had before. I can't explain it, they were just...different...oh yeah i remember what they were. I dont want to go into it, it was just weird. I dont like change, it is unsettling. I need to get my ass in gear, this blog entry is pointless, but in a good way

awesome

I dont really have the blog drive anymore, but I will anyways. I had an amazing weekend (they all are, but this one especially so) kev and I spent the weekend meeting and greeting his 'rents, I met his mom, his dad, his sister, his grandma (she is a fiesty old bird hehhhh) um oh yeah his uncle and aunt...it was quite the weekend! We met up with his ma on friday afternoon, then went to stay at ash's for the eve..then went to syracuse to meet with his dad and fam (his dad lives in chicago, but came into town for mother's day and for kev's b-day) anyways we went out to this really good italian restaurant in town, Dominick's. I had the best manicotti I think I've ever had..it was really reasonably priced too. I definitely recommend it. Then today we went to red robin to celebrate both his and ash's birthdays, if you sign up for their b-day club they send you a coupon good for a free burger...yum...they are the shizz. anyways that was fun, I'm back now at my place, its so nice to have someone who I can spend as much time as possible with and not get sick of...its awesome..he's awesome..this whole situation is great! He mentioned today that he wants to build a log cabin, which is totally a mainer thing to do (we're too thrifty a bunch to just hire a contractor to do all the dirty work, we'd rather be in the thick of it making sure things are done right. ayuh.) so anyways he's gonna be my little builder, its settled. heh. I just need a job and some sort of land to build some sort of house. hmm. gotta work on that one I 'spose. anyways, tonawanda early tomorrow, so its off to bed.

enthusiasm of new experiences..

bugs the crap outta me. I understand its exciting to be in a new place, but when other people who have been in the clinic are trying to get things done...it might be good to not be obnoxious the first day you're there...bleh, i'm in a grouchy mood, I'm just frontin'. I guess I'm just sad to not be the new guys in clinic anymore, no excuse for mediocrity now...although there aer good things to being old, pat narrs are easy now, I just banged out two (one of which was a new patient, so I had to do problem list and plan with it..) in no time flat. awesome.

important to say

I had something important to say, but I forgot what it was. Hm. Kevin and I are going to train for a marathon, I know i said i was last summer, but things got busy. its better with a running partner, its good cuz he's in better shape then me, so he can motivate me to get goin'. Some lady asked me if I was irish today, I dont know what it is about buffaloians thinking I'm irrrrish or whatever. stupids. I've been at a few rotations this week and part of last week, downtown on wed and fri and tonawanda on mon, tues, and thurs. I am starting to feel more like a doc, which is good. I think at some point I want to get ART certified, I think that shit really works. Graston would be good too, and I plan on activator this summer as well...good things! Umm I'm excited for electives too, I'm taking yoga in a chiro setting as well as SOT I, just to see what the big deal is...or maybe I'll drop them, we'll see. I dont need the credits, but I find hillenbrand's classes to be especially useful. hm I think I'm going to make rice and beans and enchiladas for dinner, kevin's at a concert right now but he'll be home later on and will be hunnnngry as I am right now...hmm I guess I'll go fridge surfing in the meantime..its been absolutely gorgeous out today, wooooo

strange

how someone can go from being a perfect stranger to being one of the most important people in your life...in the span of a few months...sadness is a distant memory, he lights up my life with a warm fuzzy feeling I can't describe

prejudice

I dont know what it is about people caring about appearances..it seems that everybody who meets kevin seems to somehow mention how 'skinny' he is. while I would agree he is a slender individual, but I dont know why its socially acceptable to mention someone's body type if they are slender, but not okay to say 'I met you boyfriend, hes really fat...' I think its kind of reverse prejudice in a way. I like him just the way he is, and I find it a little rude that people find it wise and prudent to mention it. Its about the person, not the person's appearance