sometimes

its quite an ordeal sometimes to figure out why certain people make an impression while others just kind of float on by. I think I feel the need to be connected to people, and tangible objects, activities, just to be grounded in reality...but I usually need help, someone to bring me down to earth. People who make me feel like I'm part of something usually do it best for me. Seeing more and more patients really helps me too..I feel like I'm doing something to help real, tangible people...not just some intellectual stupid thing I read in a book or whatever. Actual crap you can feel with your hands and can do something about. not some stupid emotion that just makes you so sad you can't even function. I've been doing better on that...finding what makes me happy and making it happen. As every day goes by, i think that becomes easier. I've met a lot of great people out here...well most of them I already knew, but getting to know people I've not really talked to all that much in the past few years. It always seems like I'm able to figure something out about life by talking to someone new, or just by watching other people interact. Anyways, life is good