dreams..

I dont know if dreams are a mental detox or what, they are a tad disturbing at times, that is for sure. I dont even want to describe what I dreamt of last night, plus who wants to hear about someone else's dreams. it wasn't disturbing persay, they were just very vivid, and cameos were made of people I would rather not have in my dreams. anyways, it was an interesting night. I was feeling crappy when i went to bed, I'm better now, maybe being sick makes your dreams weird?

hm

making pho tonight, I've been sick and figured that a chickeny spicy soup would be good to clean out the ol' breathing apparatus...it smells delicious, this time I'm using chicken thighs (last time I made it vegetarian..) but I had thighs in the fridge, so decided to go there. it takes like an hour and a half to cook, but that is good considering I'm not hungry yet. I even have bean sprouts and lime juice to go with it, should be delicious! everybody in clinic was in a jovial mood today, it was fun at clinic. I got all my work done waiting for 6 to roll around, I felt very accomplished. ugh emeril is on, he's a d-bag. anyways, just wanted to share my pho adventures, exciting like whoa! Everyboyd I know is getting engaged/married/preggers, its so weird. when did we all grow up?

hmmmmmmmmm

I dont like thinking about graduating...I mean its nice to finally be out of school, but I dont know where to go, what to do...the lady I shadowed over break was nice and all, but she was activator, I dont think I want to be just activator, plus her office staff was weird. hm. I could go back to the bangor area, but there's nothing much up there. Theres no associateships or whatnot in the portland area, so I just dont really know. somewhere between portland and bangor perhaps...bleh I hate thinking about the future. I just want things to never change and for nobody to bother me in my happy little bubble of contentment. bleh. In other news, the woods were fun, kevin got freaked out by nature (ah whats that noise..whats that noise..) and we got visited by a porcupine during the night (we stayed in the lean-to, which is a shelter that is open on one side. we watched the porcupine amble around the campsite, and the guy even put his front paws on the shelter, looking as if he wanted to come in and cuddle. ahh!) anyways it was fun, I'm exhausted though. bleh clinic tomorrow, I hafta go to tonawanda...stupid old peeps. bleh

psyched

I am freekin psyched for this weekend, kevin and I are going backpacking for a few days in allegany state park, on the north country trail! the packs (which i bought off craigslist for a good price) are pretty much packed, I've got enough food for a good few days of wandering around in the woods, we are ready to get out of this town for a few days and immerse ourselves in nature! woo I can't wait, I just hope the trails arent packed full of d-bags. I dont think they will, its hard to find maps of the area, which is annoying to say the least..oh well, it'll be fun I am sure

part 4...

done and over with...there's always that nervous 'did I eff that up?!!' but I think I did okay..I had a good study source (if anybody wants it let me know and i'll send you the link..) which pretty much told me what I had to know. the pep stations were pretty tricky (the ones between seeing patients) I think that was the hardest part. The stations themselves weren't bad at all...I'm just glad its over! phewwwwwwwwww

happiness

I dunno, maybe its just the stress from boards talking...but it seems like I'm not happy lately. The past week has been a real downer. I bet its mostly from all this studying, it seems like contentedness is just out of grasp, and if I do catch ahold of it, it kind of slips through my fingers, or its there and then gone, like an afterthought or a dream you try to remember but just can't

sad

I feel sorry for people who feel the need to talk about everybody else on a constant basis. I mean, how pathetic is it that their life is boring enough that they need to butt in on everybody else's existence to find happiness. Not only that, but they have to talk negatively about everybody to give themselves a little ego boost. The world would be a better place without these hateful attitudes, but what can you do about someone like that? Shake your head and hope they find a new hobby, I guess